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The Water Wheel

Lessons in letting go of anger, and channeling it to heal instead of harm.

The Garden Beyond the Gate

The Weight of Water

Before you strike, learn to carry.

The monk never raised his voice. His instructions came like the rustle of wind across moss—soft, steady, and impossible to ignore.

“You will carry water,” he said. “Every day. From the spring to the temple. No less than ten times before the evening bell.”

I frowned. “That’s it? I came here to learn how to master my fury—not become a porter.”

He nodded, unbothered by my protest. “Then you will carry your anger, too. Just as you carry the buckets. One in each hand. Do not spill it. Do not throw it. Carry it.”

The path from the spring was long. Steep. The buckets swayed with every step, water sloshing like the turbulence I’d spent my life trying to outpace. My joints protested. My pride howled louder.

Geri followed in silence. Each trip up and down the slope left me more breathless, more bitter. But by the fifth run, my mind grew quiet. I noticed the rhythm of my breathing. The smell of pine bark and sun-warmed earth. I stopped fighting the weight and started listening to it.


The next morning, he watched me struggle with the full buckets. “Today,” he said, “you will carry only half-full pails. But with no spills. If you lose a drop, you must begin again.”

Rage bubbled in me. “You’re wasting my time!” I shouted.

He simply bowed and walked away. Geri whined at my outburst, his ears twitching at the silence

Transformation begins when you no longer run from your fire or let it speak louder than your soul. When the flame learns stillness, the shadows disappear.

Introduction: The Minister's Scandal

Word spreads fast in small towns—especially when it’s wrapped in whispered gossip and delivered with raised brows. The minister, a man known for firebrand sermons and unconventional honesty, had recently been seen at a downtown lounge. Not alone. His wife had returned to her hometown for a family funeral. The woman beside him? A former flame—or maybe just a friend. But in the eyes of the congregation, perception was often more damning than truth.

By Sunday, the sanctuary murmured. Pews shifted uncomfortably. And after the service, Brother Raymond—a deacon known for his no-nonsense military manner and unwavering moral compass—cornered the minister near the baptismal font.

“You want to lead men to the truth, son? Start with your own reflection,” Raymond growled, his eyes steady. “If you’re innocent, prove it by the work of your hands, not the weakness of your words.”

The Task He Volunteers For

Rather than defend himself with passion or indignation, the minister paused, then nodded. “Then give me a task,” he said. “Something worthy of repentance. Something back-breaking enough to silence the voices in my own head, not just theirs.”

Raymond didn’t flinch. “The acreage behind the church’s east fence line. Overgrown. Stubborn. Full of thorns and rusted wire. I want it cleared. By hand. No machines. You get a shovel, a pick, and your pride. You finish it before Easter sunrise, or I’ll make sure every man here knows you’re just another pulpit peacock.”

The minister didn’t blink. “Deal.”

The Man With The Penchant For Military Discipline

Raymond had served three tours overseas. Infantry. He spoke in clipped sentences and chewed on his syllables like tobacco. He didn’t believe in idle hands or gentle truths. If there was a lesson to be learned, it was best delivered with sweat and steel.

He arrived each morning in boots caked with dust, arms crossed, wearing his ancient Marine Corps cap as if it were a crown. The minister, stripped of his clerical collar, wore flannel and jeans, blisters already forming by noon on the first day.

“You call that a swing? My grandma uprooted corn stalks faster than you’re digging out that fence post!”

“Sir, yes sir,” the minister muttered, adjusting his grip.

“Don’t give me that ‘sir’ crap—I work for a living! You wanna prove something? Then bleed into that soil till your past doesn’t recognize you!”

By day three, the minister’s hands were wrapped in gauze and tape. The thorns had torn through his sleeves. Sweat soaked his back. The sun did not show mercy. Nor did Raymond.

But something shifted. The barking didn’t feel like punishment—it felt like purpose. Like the lash of a blacksmith hammering steel into something better.

The grizzled deacon began to nod quietly as the minister kept going. No complaints. Just breath. And grit.

By day five, they no longer spoke much at all. Only the sound of roots snapping and the shovel sinking into the earth broke the silence.

The Explosive Rage - Channeled Through The Task

On the sixth day, while digging near the oldest part of the fence line, the minister unearthed a rusted nail that slashed open his palm. He cursed, loudly, dropping to his knees with a roar that startled nearby birds into flight.

“There it is!” Raymond barked from across the yard. “There’s that fire you keep pretending you don’t have. What are you gonna do with it, preacher? Punch the ground? Cry to the sky? Or finish the damn job?”

The minister stood slowly, blood dripping onto the soil. His chest heaved, not from pain—but release. He let the rage flow through his arms and into the shovel. Each strike into the earth became an act of penance, not punishment.

The land didn’t just absorb sweat—it took confession too.

He worked until twilight. By then, the thorns were gone. The rusted wire pulled free. A new path cleared, not just through weeds—but through the part of himself that once fought fire with fire.

When he finally slumped against the fence post, Raymond handed him a flask of water and grunted, “You’re starting to understand. Pain doesn’t make you weak. What you do with it? That’s what makes you a man worth following.”

Then—unexpectedly—Raymond let out a deep, wheezing laugh. Not a mocking one, but hearty and real. It echoed through the open yard like thunder off canyon walls.

The minister blinked. “What’s so funny?”

“You look like someone just baptized you in axle grease and shame,” Raymond wheezed. “If I’d known you were this much fun to mess with, I’d have cleared this acreage years ago!”

The minister frowned. His hands were raw and bloody. He was pretty sure one of the blisters was infected, and his tetanus shot was a few years overdue. “You… don’t actually care about the rumors, do you?”

“Son,” Raymond said, leaning against the wheelbarrow, “I care about this land being cleared. I care about teaching men how not to crumble under pressure. Your nightlife ain’t my concern. But if you're gonna call yourself a leader, you better learn how to take a hit without swinging back like a hot-headed teenager.”

That revelation hit harder than the sunburn on his neck. The drill-sergeant cruelty, the yelling, the relentless tasks—it was never about shaming him. It was about shaping him. With every shovel load, the minister had unknowingly shed more than just soil. He was letting go of defensiveness. Of guilt. Of ego.

And it was working.

For the first time in his adult life, he found himself taking pride not in words—but in the curve of his aching back, in the clean trench line behind him, in the simple, defiant fact that he hadn’t given up.

He paused to wipe the sweat from his brow, breathing deeply and admiring the work. The land looked different now—alive. So did he.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?!” Raymond barked, storming toward him like a sandstorm in boots. “This ain’t recess! You want a gold star or a diaper change?”

The minister’s jaw clenched. For a split second, the old fire returned. He looked at the veteran—lean, wiry, maybe seventy, but with that glint in his eyes like a man who’d wrestled death and came back smoking a cigar. A voice whispered in the back of his head: *Just one punch. Just enough to knock the smirk off.*

But another voice—the wiser one—intervened. *You take a swing, and you’ll be the fool who hit a war hero who could still snap your spine like a twig. And worse? You’ll lose what you’ve built out here.*

The minister exhaled, picked up the shovel, and answered, “No gold star, no diaper, just a job that’s not finished.”

Raymond gave a single approving nod. “Now you’re starting to sound like a Marine.”

The Watering Hole Incident

The tavern known as "The Watering Hole" was the kind of place where a man could slip off the weight of the world for a few hours. For the veteran, it was a familiar haunt—its scarred bar top and dim lighting as comforting as an old coat. The minister, still adjusting to the slower rhythms of rural life, found the place curiously warm, despite the stale scent of smoke and whiskey. They raised their glasses and swapped stories—some funny, some harrowing, all soaked in the sweat of honesty—until the barkeep announced last call.

As they stepped into the cool night air, laughter still trailing behind them, they didn’t notice the shadow that detached itself from the far side of the street. A troublemaker from the local church—a self-righteous man with a long memory and a short temper—had been watching from the alley. He caught sight of the minister’s unsteady gait, the flushed face and lazy smile that only came from one too many drinks.

"A holy man, drunk in public!" the man shouted, stepping into the light. "This what you preach on Sundays? Hypocrisy and hangovers?"

The minister raised a hand in peace, but the veteran stepped forward. "Mind your tone. We’ve all got battles."

The troublemaker spat. "Oh, I know your kind. Always hiding behind the bottle or the Bible."

That was the spark. A shove turned into a punch, and the brawl erupted like dry brush meeting flame. The veteran got dragged into the fight and something snapped. The scene twisted around him. In his mind, he was no longer outside The Watering Hole. He was back in Korea. The darkness. The gunfire. The screams. He unleashed a flurry of brutal strikes, knocking the troublemaker to the ground over and over.

"No! Not again!" he shouted into the void, sweat and tears mixing with blood.

The minister, realizing what was happening, stepped between them. He placed himself in harm’s way—and took two sharp blows to the face and one to the ribs before grabbing the veteran by the shoulders.

"Stand down, soldier. You’re home. You’re safe. That war’s over."

The veteran froze, breath ragged. He looked down at his shaking fists, the crumpled form of the troublemaker, and then to the minister—face bruised, hands raised in peace.

"God forgive me... I almost..." the veteran gasped, collapsing to his knees.

"Let it go," the minister said softly. "You’re not that man anymore."

Later, in the quiet behind the tavern, the veteran gripped the minister’s hand. "You saved his life... and mine. Don’t tell a soul, you hear me?"

The minister nodded solemnly. "Not a word."

That Sunday, the congregation sat in silence as the minister took the pulpit, his hands wrapped in heavy bandages. He didn’t speak of the fight. He didn’t name the troublemaker. He spoke of restraint, of what it takes to hold back when every muscle cries for action.

"I cleared stumps this week," he said, voice trembling. "Hard, old ones—rooted deep. Took everything I had. But I did it one swing at a time. That’s how we clear the land for new things. Not with fury. With patience."

They saw the bruises, the cuts he didn’t explain. But they understood. Some things were better left between men, God, and the night air.

The Weight of Wrath and the Wisdom of Restraint

The church was packed, though a heavy hush had settled over the congregation. Bandaged hands resting on the pulpit, the minister cleared his throat and began, his voice low but resolute. He read from Ecclesiastes 3, his voice trembling with conviction:

"To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven… A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up… A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace."

He looked up at the rows of familiar faces. "I want to speak today about anger. That quiet flame we think we’ve tamed until the wind shifts and suddenly we’re ablaze. There’s a time for anger—but it must be governed by wisdom, or it will consume everything in its path."

He turned to the story of Samson, the strongman of Israel. "Samson’s fury helped him strike down his enemies, yes. But in the end, that same rage pulled down the temple and crushed not only the Philistines—but himself. Judges 16:30 says: 'Let me die with the Philistines!' And he did. His strength became his undoing because it lacked restraint. His wrath delivered destruction, but at the cost of his own life."

Pausing, the minister looked to the side window, where the early sun pierced through a stained glass panel depicting Christ on the mount. "Christ, too, had cause for anger. In the temple, he overturned the tables of the moneychangers. But even in righteous indignation, He did not strike a single man. His wrath was not wild. It was purposeful."

He then pointed to Proverbs 16:32: "He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city."

"I’ve learned something clearing land with a man who knows war better than I ever will. Swinging an axe, tearing up roots—I found something. Anger burns fast, but patience carves deep. Each stump I pulled was a lesson in endurance. I wanted to lash out. I wanted to scream. But you know what builds a strong back and a sound soul? Holding the swing until it counts."

The congregation sat riveted as he drew his final breath of the sermon. "We all carry fire inside us. But let that fire forge you, not destroy you. Let it light a path. Don’t let it burn bridges or people. There’s a time for war, yes. But more often than not, God is calling us to be peacemakers with callused hands and calm hearts."

He stepped back from the pulpit, offering no altar call. Just silence. Reflection. And bandaged hands held open in peace.

Reflections From The Congregation

As the last note from the church organ faded, murmurs stirred in the pews. Not the whispers of gossip, but something heavier—contemplation.

Brother Ellison, a retired coal miner known for his short fuse, leaned toward his wife and whispered, "That man just preached the fight outta me. Lord help me, I needed that."

Miss Clara, the sharp-tongued Sunday school teacher who never missed a prayer meeting, wiped a tear from her eye and whispered, "He didn’t say a word about that bar brawl—but we all know. And maybe, just maybe, that restraint… that silence, preached louder than fists ever could."

In the back row, a teenager named Lucas, who had been teetering on the edge of rebellion, scribbled down the verse from Proverbs. It was the first time he’d written something in church not assigned by his mother.

Even Deacon Reynolds, who had once considered replacing the minister over recent scandals, stayed behind afterward. He didn’t approach the pulpit, didn’t shake a hand. But he sat, long after others had left, head bowed and hands clasped, like a man who had finally heard something true.

There was no applause. No shouting or clapping. Just something deeper. Like a plow tilling hardened earth. A shift beneath the surface. The kind that only time, truth, and painful honesty can make.

A Word From The Veteran

As the minister sat quietly outside the church after the sermon, nursing his bandaged hands and sipping lukewarm coffee, Raymond approached. He stood in silence for a moment, then lit a cigarette with the same steady hands that once cleared jungle trails and stormed machine-gun nests.

He looked out toward the horizon and spoke without turning. "My old CO once told me, 'It’s not the man who yells the loudest or hits the hardest that wins the fight—it’s the man who knows when not to fight at all.'"

Raymond turned, nodding once with eyes that had seen too much and said, "You lived that truth today, preacher. Don’t think I didn’t notice. And I’ll never forget it."