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I Once Had Dreams

Lessons in life from the perspective of a perpetual dreamer.

The Vision I Once Had

How My Experiences Shaped My Vision

I had a dream of healing others. It didn't matter how I'd achieve that dream. All I knew was that it would become the driving force of my personal life, leaking into employment and educational choices.

The Parable of the Lamp in the Fog:
There once was a lamp, placed in the center of a village square. On good days, people gathered near it for warmth and guidance. Children played beside it. Lovers met in its glow. The lamp felt love and purpose and glowed a little brighter each day.

But time changed. One year, a thick fog settled over the land. The villagers, disoriented and fearful, turned away from the lamp. “It’s too dim,” they said. “It cannot help us anymore.” The lamp tried harder to shine, but the fog swallowed its light. Some even blamed the lamp for the shadows they now walked in.

Cast out and carried away by the wind, the lamp found itself in a field, near a forest’s edge — where no one came. Days passed. Then weeks. The lamp was alone, its flame flickering low, keeping itself lit not out of purpose, but habit.

Travelers came and went, never stopping long. Animals passed by. A storm shattered its casing, and the lamp no longer glowed. It was just... there.

Decades passed. The lamp had long since stopped expecting anything at all. One day, a child wandered into the field with a broken compass. “This used to be a trail,” she said to no one. She saw the weathered lamp, half-buried in moss. “Maybe it still works.” She called for help.

Her family came — and one elder among them recognized the lamp. With reverence, he restored it piece by piece. “This was the light of our childhood,” he said. “We forgot how much we needed it.”

The lamp glowed again. Not for crowds. Not for the village. But for those who remembered. Family. Pilgrims. The broken-hearted who heard stories passed down.

And though the lamp never returned to the square, its light still mattered — in quiet, in memory, in wisdom only the years could write.

Never discount the power of a vision. It will continue to resurface, becoming a dream achieved, or a lesson of personal cost.

The Seeds We Never Meant to Plant

Sometimes, we plant seeds without realizing it — in the lives of others, in our own hearts, and in the silence of our struggles. These seeds bloom years later, bearing fruit we never imagined.

Introduction: The Vision

Each of us holds a vision — a quiet longing to be seen, loved, and useful. For some, this vision is clear from childhood; for others, it emerges through hardship. Mine came in fragments — a whisper in the forest, a flicker of light during long nights on the streets, a sense of divine purpose not yet understood.

Like the lamp in the parable, I once burned brightly, surrounded by warmth and belonging. But when the fog of rejection, trauma, and societal exile rolled in, my light faltered. I was not extinguished — just forgotten.

Years later, that light would rekindle — not in grandeur, but in service. Tutoring a runaway. Offering warmth where once I had none. And watching as the seeds I never meant to plant began to bloom in another soul.

Sermon Note (AMP): “Let us not grow weary or become discouraged in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap, if we do not give in.” — Galatians 6:9 (AMP).
The seeds of goodness often take years to grow. But they are never wasted. Even those sown in pain can yield healing.

Buddhist Parallel: The law of karma, or cause and effect, teaches that every action — intentional or not — creates a ripple in the stream of life. The Bodhisattva ideal encourages planting seeds of compassion, knowing that even the smallest act of kindness can liberate countless beings.

This blend of scriptural and spiritual insight teaches us that our past doesn’t disqualify us — it prepares us. And the person you heal tomorrow may be the child of the one who once caused your deepest pain.

Parable: The Lamp in the Fog (Revisited)

The young girl — now an adult — stood before her new apartment, a church-funded key in her hand and a GED certificate in her bag. “I never knew who she was,” she told the pastor one day. “But something in her eyes made me feel safe.”

Her tutor, now gray at the temples, watched from afar. Not out of fear, but reverence. She knew the seed she never meant to plant had become a tree with roots far stronger than her own. She had guided her without needing recognition.

As the girl began volunteering with outreach herself, she began to suspect — but never confirmed — the truth. It didn’t matter. What mattered was that kindness, once planted in the soil of desperation, had grown into liberation.

Closing Reflections

Not every seed we plant is intentional. Some are born of trauma. Others of resilience. But all have potential. Even when we think we are disqualified, or past our season, we may become the shade tree for someone else's summer.

Sermon Note (AMP): “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds [healing their pain and comforting their sorrow].” — Psalm 147:3 (AMP).
Healing is not just personal. It's a communal act, often delivered quietly, through grace, service, and presence.

Buddhist Reflection: “Just as a candle cannot burn without fire, men cannot live without a spiritual life.” — Gautama Buddha.
Spiritual life does not require a pulpit. It begins with intention and finds expression through compassion.

To all who feel forgotten, cast aside, or aging into invisibility — know this: the light within you may not burn for crowds, but it still lights the way for the one soul that needed you to survive.

The Forgotten Lantern

A poem to honor the ones who lit the way before us — now dimmed by time, yet never truly extinguished.

In a quiet corner of the past, A lantern once burned bright and fast. Hung by hands both firm and kind, Guiding souls who once were blind.

We ran beneath its golden light, Unaware of age or night. It taught us truth, it warmed the air, While we raced on, unaware.

Now rust has claimed its silver frame, Its wick, though hidden, still holds flame. Forgotten not — just tucked away, Waiting for a child to say:

“I remember where I’ve been, And who first taught me how to bend. To bow in wisdom, not defeat — To see the sacred in the street.”

The lantern never asked for praise, Nor sought to bask in better days. Its purpose was to simply shine, To pass the light down through the line.

So may we find these lanterns dear, Still holding space when we draw near. May we give honor, love, and grace To every elder's silent place.

A Prayer of Reverence

A reflection born of both ancient scripture and present need — offered in the spirit of the prayer Jesus taught.

Our Creator, who sees in secret places, Holy is Your name through every generation. Let Your wisdom reign in us as it reigns in heaven — Teaching us to serve, to forgive, to heal.

Grant us today the nourishment of understanding — Bread for the body, and light for the path. Forgive us for our forgetfulness — As we forgive those who forgot our worth.

Lead us away from the temptation to close our hearts, And deliver us from the bitterness of being overlooked.

For Yours is the flame that never dies, The kingdom that uplifts the weary, The power that renews the forgotten, And the glory of every quiet act of love — Forever and always. Amen.

Benediction: Let the Flame Pass On

A call to carry the light forward — gently, intentionally, and with reverence for those who lit it first.

As you go forth, remember this: The light within you was not born in a vacuum — it was sparked by others. Some you knew well. Others may have loved you quietly, from a distance.

Do not let the world convince you that only loud victories matter. Quiet endurance, faithful love, and unseen sacrifice often tell the holiest stories.

Reach out to the forgotten lanterns — the elders, the mentors, the wounded guides — and honor them not only with words, but with the way you live your truth.

Tend your flame. Pass it on. For in the passing, the light grows — not smaller, but stronger. And you become part of a sacred fire that will never go out.

Go now in peace, with purpose in your step and compassion in your flame.